All back to normal. Our normal. Master is back home and i am here and i did my morning routine and tasks as usual. I had a little bit of a hunch in my shoulders.....................
Since Master has allowed me to see some men, the subject of sex has come up. This is a bit of an emotional topic for me. Master has given me the do's and do nots. He hasn't given approval yet, but we are talking about it. He tells me that He knows that i have physical needs and He wants to take care of that. Master says that i have to remember that its also not about what i want, but what He wants. During this entire conversation i was emotional. i apologized to Master for being emotional. i am not sure if its because i still have a little of a drop going on, i cried again last night, or that its just an emotional topic because of how i feel for Him.
i also have to remember that i am only doing this because it is what He wants me to do. i told Him today that i would rather drop everything and just move and serve Him and not deal with all of this other stuff. That is the only thing that would really make me happy. i know i never want to loose Him. Maybe by Him allowing me to have sex with someone else, i think a piece of me will go?
i seem to be rambling thoughts today..................still dropping?
Question......ever think about someone that turns you on that it affects your body somehow?
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