10.13.15 Desensitizing?

For starters, (why do i always list things?), final word on the dating saga....NO. (Wait, maybe it's because i am a very organized person?)

How do i feel about it? Meh. Good, but worried. i'm worried because at the times when i do get real lonely, like now, what will i do? i crave to be touched. i sometimes get "frenzied" about it.

i looked up online today how to be physical without being touched. Had some good ideas on only one article i saw.

http://www.getrelationshipsright.com/need_touch/

One section mentioning touching yourself. i took that as an opportunity to explain to Master that i should cum more ;)! He actually agreed, which is fantastic for me. After He said that i thought about it and think perhaps that might help????? Seriously. i mean think about it. If i am pleasing myself and doing what gives me joy and eases me, wouldn't that help? Am i just blowing smoke up my ass? i don't know.

Anyway, ironically i saw an article on Fet today. i forget exactly what the title was, but it spoke about how can one have sex with out the other emotions being involved. Not surprising was how some can and some can't, but i messaged the starter of the conversation to see how she is handling the situation. i would like to desensitize myself. Can one? i want to know if she got anything out of the posts. i hope she gets back to me.

i think if i were able to desensitize myself this dating thing wouldn't have been such an issue. i want my brain, my heart, and everything else to be with Master. That is why it is such a struggle for me.

My BFF said that she can just have sex because it feels good and gets her off. Can i look at it like that too?