Master and i have a date scheduled for next weekend. i'm really excited but very nervous too. i'm nervous because i am very self conscious and shy (yes, i'm shy. but just the physical shy. like showing my body shy). i want to look good for Him and i never think i do. i want to be flawless. i know that no one person is completely flawless, but that's how i want to be..for Him. i'm scared He will see my flaws and remember them and be turned off.
i have been on a diet and working out mostly every day and i know i have lost inches and some weight. i have to be more determined. i get so blah sometimes, and lazy. i need that push.
i'm excited for what Master has planned. Doesn't even matter what it is, just excited for it. We could just play Bingo and i'd be happy. Just being in His presence keeps me settled. Makes me feel safe and at home.
my dom friend is coming over tonight for a visit. Looking forward to it. It will be fun to talk and be able to talk about Fet and the lifestyle, etc. i don't get to talk about it with anyone in my real life but him really. Its refreshing.
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