i couldn't even remember what i had typed last night in the Blog. All i know is that i was wrapped up in a huge blanket on my couch, drinking red wine, and the drop started. From the second Master sent me His last message, which was around 630 pm, until 1 am i literally cried. Not like a little tear here and there. A full on ball out. Thank God for my best friend. i can't thank her or love her enough.
i fell asleep at some point. Maybe around 2 am?
This morning i looked in the mirror and i am not so sure i have ever seen my face look so swollen before. my eyes were so swollen they were almost shut.
i think that i have shed every tear that i had. He has taken them also. He owns my soul. There is nothing left of who i used to be.
How do i recover from this? i know the answer is just time. But i'd prefer a different answer.
Before we said goodbye, He also put His hands on me. i don't want to go into the details but i can't get it out of my head. i go from being extremely turned on to wanting more and missing Him.
Just trying to get through the day today. i am hoping to hear or see from Him later (via Skype). i'd love to see Him again tomorrow as He drives through to get back to the airport. Just wishful thinking. Maybe i am a masochist................
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