i was able to be on Skype with Master last night. i was so happy to see Him again.
He wanted to watch me cum, and i was scared when He told me that because i was scared of dropping again. But i didn't care, because i will do anything He wants, needs and says. In the end i was good and did not experience any signs of dropping.
i had also asked Master if i could see Him again on His way to the airport. Even if it was just for one single second i would take it. He said He was able so we met up very quickly. i was so grateful to be able to be held by Him again. i wanted to remember how it felt. He's so strong. i won't forget that.
Walking away i felt the tears coming but held them back. i feared letting them go would push me over the edge again. i couldn't allow that to happen again, plus Master did tell me that i was not to be up until 1 am crying again.
i know the best thing for me to do is to stay busy and share how i am feeling. my best friend told me its okay to have a good day, and shes right. i also have to realize how very freakin' lucky i am to have been able to meet Him, many of us don't get that opportunity. i must look at the positive, not the negative. Granted He's left, but the positive so outweighs the negative here.
i want to continue to say what an amazing man He is and how lucky that i was picked to be the one to submit to Him, but i don't know what else i can say. And although i've never told Him, i know He knows how i feel for Him. And it's not the same feeling as lets say a husband/wife or boyfriend/girlfriend or parent/child. Its something completely different and amazing. It's Master/sub.
The first weekend of October never will i forget....................................
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